Time and Space
Okay, so I got a comment on my last entry, and it filled me with a need to clarify. In my last blog, I came off extremely warm and fuzzy on my relationship with my Matt. And yes, I do love him a lot. We jive, and there is something there. There has always been something there. I can see us having a future together. In the future.
However, the time is not now. There are a lot of reasons why Matt and I are not together now. I'll even list them, because my last class let out an hour early, and I have nothing to do but sit in the writing lab, and wait for the next one to roll around.
1.) We live in two separate (and far) states. He is in New Hampshire, and I am in Pennsylvania. And it three months, he will be in Massachussets, and I will still be here, in Pennsylvania. And in a year, he will be on Long Island, in New York, and I will still be here, in Pennsylvania. Although that is closer, and we can see each other a lot more. Maybe something will happen when he's two hours away, but other than talking, the eight hour drive isn't conducive for a late night booty call.
2.) We are at two different points in our lives. I am still in college, and he is graduating in less than a month, and will be taking the business world by storm. In the scheme of life, we not in the same place.
3.) He just got out of a three year relationship. He put up with a lot, and he really loved her, but she just wanted something that Matt couldn't be. She wanted him to be the suit wearing nine to five guy, and that's not Matt. I hated her. And she hated me. Probably for the same reason that all his other GF's hated me. I am a constant in his life, and she knew it. And she really hated the fact that I was an always and forever, and that I wasn't going to go away. She told me so. It was no secret that we didn't like each other. Everyone knew, Matt included. I think that was probably a factor in their breakup. She didn't understand why we are such good friends. Most girls don't understand that. I could never understand why they were so threatened by me. After all, I don't live anywhere near them. It wasn't til Kylie (EEGF) explained it to me that I finally got it.
4.) If we were to ever get together, it would never be casual. It would automatically turn into something. Something big, something serious. Our families are already invested. I, and I know he isn't ready for that. At least, not now.
5.) The biggest reason is, I love our relationship. I love that I can call him up in the middle of the night, and ask him where Alfred Hitchcock's cameo in Marnie was, and he'll give me the answer and not bitch about the time. I love that he lets me ramble about stupid crap all the time, and never interrupts. I love that no one will watch a movie with us, because they can't stand it when we start to talk our way through it, quoting lines and mocking. I love that when I call need him, he's always there. I'm not ready for that to change. And lets face it, adding the lip locking tends to change the whole dynamic of a relationship. I don't do change very well. And who the heck would I call to tell how our date went? And who would beat him up when he decided to do something boneheaded? That's what he does for me. I swear, if I gave him the address of Chris (Bastard Boyfriend #2) he'd be in the hospital by the time that I hung up the phone. (Although, then he'd be in jail in Pa, and that's a lot closer than Boston!) It would change everything, and I love our relationship. (Kind of reminiscent of Dawson and Joey, as Miel put it! Except that all our parents are normal. And that we don't talk like forty year olds. Well, I do, but he usually hits me on the arm and tells me to use smaller words, and act like a normal twenty year old. And the fact that we are real, and not made up, and that we are semi normal, and can function without the other in society.)
So in review, there is a lot of potential for us FOR THE FUTURE. But today, I'm happy with being his best friend. The door hasn't been shut. I'd never shut the door on a relationship with him. (Seriously, he's really, really cute. And he has a nice set of shoulders. Well, he does when he's not wearing a sling. Still a bit peeved about that. Probably will be for a while.) Until then, I am more than happy with the way that things are. I have him in my life, and he will always be there.
But who knows what the future brings?
Katherine
However, the time is not now. There are a lot of reasons why Matt and I are not together now. I'll even list them, because my last class let out an hour early, and I have nothing to do but sit in the writing lab, and wait for the next one to roll around.
1.) We live in two separate (and far) states. He is in New Hampshire, and I am in Pennsylvania. And it three months, he will be in Massachussets, and I will still be here, in Pennsylvania. And in a year, he will be on Long Island, in New York, and I will still be here, in Pennsylvania. Although that is closer, and we can see each other a lot more. Maybe something will happen when he's two hours away, but other than talking, the eight hour drive isn't conducive for a late night booty call.
2.) We are at two different points in our lives. I am still in college, and he is graduating in less than a month, and will be taking the business world by storm. In the scheme of life, we not in the same place.
3.) He just got out of a three year relationship. He put up with a lot, and he really loved her, but she just wanted something that Matt couldn't be. She wanted him to be the suit wearing nine to five guy, and that's not Matt. I hated her. And she hated me. Probably for the same reason that all his other GF's hated me. I am a constant in his life, and she knew it. And she really hated the fact that I was an always and forever, and that I wasn't going to go away. She told me so. It was no secret that we didn't like each other. Everyone knew, Matt included. I think that was probably a factor in their breakup. She didn't understand why we are such good friends. Most girls don't understand that. I could never understand why they were so threatened by me. After all, I don't live anywhere near them. It wasn't til Kylie (EEGF) explained it to me that I finally got it.
4.) If we were to ever get together, it would never be casual. It would automatically turn into something. Something big, something serious. Our families are already invested. I, and I know he isn't ready for that. At least, not now.
5.) The biggest reason is, I love our relationship. I love that I can call him up in the middle of the night, and ask him where Alfred Hitchcock's cameo in Marnie was, and he'll give me the answer and not bitch about the time. I love that he lets me ramble about stupid crap all the time, and never interrupts. I love that no one will watch a movie with us, because they can't stand it when we start to talk our way through it, quoting lines and mocking. I love that when I call need him, he's always there. I'm not ready for that to change. And lets face it, adding the lip locking tends to change the whole dynamic of a relationship. I don't do change very well. And who the heck would I call to tell how our date went? And who would beat him up when he decided to do something boneheaded? That's what he does for me. I swear, if I gave him the address of Chris (Bastard Boyfriend #2) he'd be in the hospital by the time that I hung up the phone. (Although, then he'd be in jail in Pa, and that's a lot closer than Boston!) It would change everything, and I love our relationship. (Kind of reminiscent of Dawson and Joey, as Miel put it! Except that all our parents are normal. And that we don't talk like forty year olds. Well, I do, but he usually hits me on the arm and tells me to use smaller words, and act like a normal twenty year old. And the fact that we are real, and not made up, and that we are semi normal, and can function without the other in society.)
So in review, there is a lot of potential for us FOR THE FUTURE. But today, I'm happy with being his best friend. The door hasn't been shut. I'd never shut the door on a relationship with him. (Seriously, he's really, really cute. And he has a nice set of shoulders. Well, he does when he's not wearing a sling. Still a bit peeved about that. Probably will be for a while.) Until then, I am more than happy with the way that things are. I have him in my life, and he will always be there.
But who knows what the future brings?
Katherine
posted by rosie4299 at 10:19 AM
3 Comments:
Amen. It's hard to find a man who lets you be you, and will beat up the jerks--you'd never want him to become the jerk. And boys need lots of years catch up with us ladies, maturity-wise. You're getting quite possibly the best of all situations with him.
now--what happened last night on VM? If you haven't read my blog, I'm dying here!
Don't forget one that knows your laid-back times and times that they know you're serious. Ooh, and mature.
I'm glad I found P.Nilly. Can't believe I'm going to be married to him for 3 years in June! LOL.
~M
Don't forget one that knows your laid-back times and times that they know you're serious. Ooh, and mature.
I'm glad I found P.Nilly. Can't believe I'm going to be married to him for 3 years in June! LOL.
~M
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