Who Knew?

Who knew that anything could hurt like this?

My Grandfather died about twenty minutes ago. I knew it was coming, I mean, we found out right after Thanksgiving, but I never even thought, for one single second, that loss felt this bad.

I never lost anyone before.

All that crap that I went through last year, with Chris, all the pain of lost friends, adjusting to yet another new school after adjusting to one only one year prior, all are dwarfed when I even begin to think about this.

It's not fair. This whole thing just sucks. I saw him only a few hours ago. He has been fading fast, and I just felt this pull, this, I don't know. I've had this feeling in my stomach, since Monday at work when I told Noreen about it, and it's like I knew.

I only wish that I knew something else.

Katherine