Power Outage

The power went out in my little corner of the world...

It sucked. Everything seems to suck right now. My Grandpa has decided not to do the chemo, not that I really blame him. He watched his mother die of cancer, in pain a long time ago. It happened before I was born. That was when he decided to stop going to the doctors, I think.

I hate this. I'm so sad, I start to cry at the stupidest stuff. My sister and I were watching The Santa Clause 2 earlier, and I just started to sob. It was a touching part, but still. I shouldn't have cried. I'm a crybaby, and I cry at a lot of stuff, but this is really pushing it.

I'm not really in a writing mood right now. I have the notes for chapter 3 of TC and the notes for chapter 7 of The Last, and I even have a rough outline of Amy's fic, but they are all kind of fluffy, and I'm not in a fluffy mood. And I don't want to ruin anything with my crappy mood.

My Grandpa's coming home tomorrow, and I'm glad, but I'm dreading it at the same time. I want to be close to him, so I can see him whenever I want, but I know that soon, that won' t be an option, and every time I see him, I can feel him slipping away a little more.

I guess that life sucks sometimes.

Katherine